What happens to us? A poem...

What really happens when things disappear?
Are they lost forever or simply put away?
Do they find new homes, to others who
find them more useful?  Do they wonder
aimlessly to find their way back home?

What occurs when meaning loses its'
meaning?  Was it just a passing of time?
Does it become a fragment of the past or
become another's future?  Or only a step
to something more desireable?

What takes place when memories are
forgotten?  Are they so easily replaced?
Blocked out from harm or sorrow, or
kept a secret that fades for not being
shared?  Or was it only made-up?

Where does one's breath go?  Once it
exits the body, blending into the
mid-summer's breeze?  Once it was
something life sustaining, only to
vanish and never be seen again.

Why does love come and go?  Is it
afraid of losing its host?  Or does
it seek those who've yet to discover
it?  So that all of life may share in
the answering of so many prayers?

What happens when we remember?
That when love comes we can breathe
as new memories are created and life
gains new meaning, does harm and
sorrow go, disappearing as it happens.


 

future past

hope and dreams are here, and gone,
yet here again, as the leaves turn,
returning to green, and then red,
like oceans calm, shifting to
become turbulent, rocky, saying
hello, then goodbye or so long,
yellow arises, soaring o'er the
skies, to fall, though unmoved,
shapes appear, twinkling above,
a hunter, a pot, a belt, vanishing
without sound, black clouds
hover, crying upon the land,
chasing beasts, leaping, feeding,
caring for their young, nestled
beneath nature's whisper, bedding,
resting, til the jagged canyon
rims show their faces, a babe
cries, and we are returned.

This morning

I woke this morning, and

my other pillow was plump,

it had not been slept on,

it had not been moved,

and one half of the bed

appeared made.

I woke this morning, and

one set of feet was all

that I heard, my slippers

sliding across the carpet,

when my feet paused,

there were no other sounds.

I woke this morning, and

made coffee for only me,

one glass of water, one

spoonful of grounds, one

push of the button, only

one cup.

I woke this morning, and

sat down on my couch,

my legs stretched out,

heels on the ottoman,

ten toes not twenty,

two heels, not four.

I woke this morning, and

I stared at my dresser,

deciding what to wear today,

no reason to look sexy,

only my eyes could see,

I stayed in pajamas.

I woke this morning, and

turned the shower to hot,

warm water spilled onto

my back, soap could not

reach the middle, I left

it for you to scrub.

I woke this morning, and

turned on the television,

watching something that

you would have liked, just

for background noise, and

maybe to pretend.

I woke this morning, and

your smile filled my mind,

your touch caressed my

skin, your voice filled my

ears, your kiss covered

my exposed lips.

I want to go back to bed!

A wish!

If I was granted just one wish,
would I wish to be a star
of the sky, so that I could
shine in the dark and see you
resting next to me at night;

Or would I wish to be a tree,
one that reaches high
into the air, so that I could
extend my branches for you
to swing from and feel secure;

Or maybe I would wish,
to be an ocean so warm and
blue, so that you would never
stop dreaming beyond the
horizon;

Or would I wish only to be me,
so that I could give you, my sweet
love, all of who I am, as you
have given to me; my star,
my tree, my ocean!

Struggling to understand...

As a shadow longs for the sun to come out,

and as a bird awaits the wind,

and when sails are left empty of life's breath,

the tides will change to carry us home.

 

Just as the moon knows when to shine,

and as the stars take their nightly seat,

and when the planets spin around the sun,

the galaxies perform in one accord.

 

For each day, we know not life's plan,

though the past presents the future,

our hearts can rest in assurance,

that tomorrow will never be the same.

 

So, as a shadow lies and wonders,

while the bird perches and believes,

and the sails make ready for gusts,

our loved ones will show us the way!

 

And as the moon's gazing light dims,

and the stars fade into the day,

the planets continue their turning,

so our lives are all in accord!

Stretching

At a time when my world
Had broken into pieces and fell,
Fresh rose petals bowed in grey,
Clean water turned brown,
A whisper drifted upon the wind,
Flowing gracefully through dense skies,
And I waited, alone,
Staring afar, into the changing tide,
Floods ebbing as the day's light rest,
Prairies of golden wheat fading into black,
I sat, still, on the chilled earth's floor,
Smokey frost exiting my mouth,
And I waited some more, eyes closed,
Wind scratching at my face,
When finally, your voice reached my ear,
Faintly, I could hear you, calling me,
I sat with a stir in my heart, looking,
My eyes filled with hope, a new sun,
Floating upward, searching for you,
As if my flying feet refused to land,
Rose petals reddened, waters cleared,
The air less thick, warmth in the blanket
Of hearing your voice, then silence,
And a silhouette of you nearing,
Stretching your arms around me,
At last, we are together!

A moment

Excuse me, please,
just for a moment,
of time, of breathing,
to rest my head;

You see, i need,
i desire, to
be close, alone, me,
to lift my heart;

If you don't mind,
may i have your hand,
to read, or hold, touch,
on bended knee;

I am humble,
and only wish for,
a moment, to feel you,
a warm embrace;

Excuse me, please,
lend me your presence,
if you have the time,
for my moment;

Without your eyes,
my eyes are vacant,
my path obstructed,
you see, we're one.

Tonight

Tonight, my eyes are vacant,
My lover is not in sight,
Though my mind is filled,
With thoughts of seeing you near.

Tonight, my bed is empty,
I am alone and afraid,
The wind blows loudly,
I only wish to be held.

Tonight, my heart is weary,
Yet mindful of being touched,
Warm caressing hands,
Passionately soothing me.

Tonight, I can only wait,
'Til the sun rises again,
And then I can hope,
That wishes will be answered.

Tonight, another day ends,
My body misses my dear,
To be loved by you,
To sleep in security.

Fatherless Holiday

Fatherless Holiday

By: Jaymes Ian Woode

Today, I sit and wonder about my five children, 4 boys and 1 girl.  It has been two years since I’ve seen them and I can only imagine how much they have grown.  Now, as I sit here, I can only close my eyes if I want to see them.  My mind isn’t capable of creating what they may look like; I can only remember how they appeared before I said “Goodbye.”

No one has to remind me of the guilt and shame that I feel as a divorced father.  No one has to clue me in to my responsibilities of child support.  Furthermore, no one needs to jog my memory about what it used to feel like to hold my kids close and watch them grow.  It is what I hold onto every day and those thoughts give me just enough strength to carry on.

I am only one dad out of millions that has struggled with fulfilling court orders and obligations just to see my own children.  With a continually declining economy, many dads are finding it just as hard to survive and make enough income to offset child support and their cost of living.  Many have fallen behind in payments and have been told they cannot see their children until they “catch up” on them, as in my case. 

It was never my dream to abandon my kids.  God knows how my heart craves to see them and feel their innocent touch of love.  When my wife left me five years ago, my life was devastated.  It was something I never saw coming as our home was a wonderful place and “our” kids were loved and adored by their parents.  To this day, I have struggled every step of the way to get myself in a better position financially so that I could afford child support, bills, and be able to spend time with my children.  It is all that I want to do.

Please, don’t misunderstand me.  I am not seeking sympathy from anyone.  Nobody ever said that life would be fair.  What I struggle with most, is wondering how any healthy society could allow children to be torn from their father because of lack of money.  Danger was never present in our home and my wife’s desire to leave was something she needed to do for herself.  I am a great dad, as long as I am not measured by my income which is sparse.  I can’t even afford presents for my kids these last two years as I have roamed the country looking for work that would provide me a better living.

With the ever increasing research showing the effects on children whose father is not present; I am still amazed that changes haven’t been made to right current situations for so many dads.  Instead, we are left to be broken-hearted and treated like criminals when we did nothing wrong to begin with.  Sure, there are always exceptions but for the majority of fathers, we are wholesome loving people who only wish to have quality time with our own children.  There is nothing more encouraging and motivating to dads than to spend time with their kids yet we are constantly threatened by jail time and court fees because we can’t make enough to survive.  Many have opted out completely by their own hand, still nothing is done. 

So this year, in the country that was built by fathers, may we start making some changes:  Changes that are necessary to the overall health of the children who miss their fathers too; Changes that demonstrate that our country is better, healthier, and more caring about its own people; Changes that allow fathers to spend time with their children and continue loving, embracing, praising, encouraging, and supporting them in any and every way possible.  The greatest gift a father can have is to spend time with the ones he loves most and love cannot be measured by “catching up” on payments unless the government can assure jobs that pay enough.  Please, stop taking time away from the relationships of fathers and their children.  One can always pay bills but cannot replace time with their kids that will impact them throughout their lives.  Just in case I can't spend time with my children this year, would you please tell how much I love and adore them and let them know that I am doing everything that I know how so they won't too many fatherless holidays.

Attraction

I discover that I embrace

Gentle hands upon my skin;

As if soft fingers understand

The body’s need for nurturing.

I am drawn to the eyes that

Gaze upon my presence;

As if they see what the

Soul has long searched for.

I am allured to the sound of

A caring voice calling my name;

As if it is the word those lips

Have perfected over time.

However, I am most attracted to

The possibility of one day speaking

God’s majestic name with my own lips;

And feeling his presence with

My own hands; and seeing his glory

Through my own eyes; only then

Will I know true love.

3-Day Road Warrior: Boston, MA through New England to Manchester, NH

3-Day Road Warrior: Boston, MA to Manchester, NH

Why leave the same way you arrived?

If you’re flying to Boston, Massachusetts, whether on business or for pleasure, and want to experience some of America’s most beautiful landscapes, then follow these simple steps to make the most of driving the New England states in road-warrior fashion. 

Day 1:

1.       Rent a car: All the major car rental companies are in the Boston Logan International Airport and offer competitive rates for a three or four day rental.  Starting prices are around $100.00 per day.

2.       Head North: Drive onto I-93 North into New Hampshire for 165 miles to Whitefield, NH.  Follow I-93 North to exit 35 and bear right, following Route 3 for 21 miles.  Turn right onto Mountain View Road for another .25 miles and finish the drive at the Mountain View Grand Resort and Spa. This scenic route takes you through the western portion of White Mountain National Forest where there are plenty of places to stop and view, or photograph, some amazing landscape. 

3.       Stay at the Mountain View Grand Resort and Spa: Not only is the White Mountain National Forest a sight of New England wonder but so is the resort.  This establishment began in 1865 and closed down in 1989 and was purchased by an entrepreneur who invested more than $20 million to complete a historic renovation.  More than 57 mountain peaks, including the Presidential Range, can be seen from the resort.  Visit www.mountainviewgrand.com to learn more about all that is available. Did I mention it is the only 8 Diamond Resort around the area and offers rooms at very affordable prices?

Day 2:

4.       Wake up and enjoy the morning view while eating breakfast in one of the three restaurants on the property of the Mountain View Grand Resort and Spa.

5.       Leave Whitefield, NH and arrive at Stowe, VT:  Drive the 21.25 miles back to I-93 North.  Head North on I-93 and drive about 20 miles (crossing over into Vermont) and merge onto I-91 North towards St. Johnsbury, Vermont.  Take exit 21 and get on US 2 toward Danville/Montpelier for 10 miles and then turn right onto VT-15/Grand Army of the Republic Highway for 13 miles.  Take another right to stay on VT-15 for 12 more miles and then turn left on Park Street for 2 miles.  Park Street becomes Upper Main Street/ VT -12 and follow this for 9 miles.  Welcome to Stowe, Vermont. (Total Drive: about 87 miles).

6.       Relax: Stowe offers plenty of things to do: shop, dine, hike, ski, tours, etc.  Stay for a few hours and have lunch (my favorite is the Shed Brewery for local brew and dining).

7.       Pack the car, you’re headed East: Leave Stowe and head for Waterville, Maine.  This is a lengthy drive but worth every mile.  Start out by taking Main Street back to VT -15/Grand Army of the Republic Highway East for 25 miles.  Turn left on US 2 for 9 miles and merge onto I-91 South for 6 miles.  Take exit 1 toward US 2 East and turn left on VT-18.  Next, turn right on US 2 (crossing back into New Hampshire) and follow US 2 for about 118 miles.  Be aware, you have to watch the signs to follow US 2 correctly but don’t forget to enjoy the scenery as well.  This is a good time to let someone else do the driving so you can look out the window.  Turn right on ME-156 and follow for 9 miles which turns into ME-41.  Turn right, back onto US-2 for 17 miles which turns into ME-139.  Follow ME-139 for 11 miles which turns into ME-104.  Follow ME-104 for 3.5 miles and turn onto Pico Ter.  Welcome to small town feeling Waterville, Maine!  That wasn’t so bad was it? You’re drive isn’t over yet though. (Total drive: 210 miles).

8.       Eat: In Waterville, Maine, eat at the Thai Bistro at 147 Main Street.  Not only is the food (Authentic Thai, Korean, Japanese, and Vietnamese Cuisine with plenty of dishes for everyone) outstanding but its chef, Thisakorn Allen, has received five star ratings and is called “One of Maine’s culinary gems.”

9.       Leave Waterville with a full and happy stomach and head south to Augusta: I recommend following the ME-104 alongside the Kennebec River about 20 miles and into the heart of Augusta, Maine.  This drive allows for many scenic river/bridge photos.  The other option is to backtrack to I-95 South and follow it for 18 miles south and then merge onto ME-17 another 2 miles to Augusta.  Either way will get you there.

10.   In Augusta:  Augusta offers plenty of places to lay your head for the night with all of the typical hotels, motels, and inns.  However, if you wish to be enthralled by a captivating bedtime experience, I recommend the Benjamin Wales House Bed & Breakfast just another 2 miles south of Augusta on ME-27 in Hallowell, Maine.  In Hallowell, turn right onto Temple Street, left on 2^nd Street, and a quick right onto Chestnut Street.  This historic 1820 Federal style B&B, listed on the National Registry of Historic Place, with English gardens, cobblestone patios, professionally landscaped grounds, ponds and waterfalls, with charming shops just blocks away is located on the corner of Chestnut Street and Middle Street.  It may be just the kind of rest you require after a solid day of crossing the most northern New England states.

Day 3:

11.   Wake up and enjoy an amazing breakfast that will provide enough sustenance to get you through the day.  After breakfast, walk a couple of blocks to downtown Hallowell for more history and shopping or jump back into the car and return the 2 miles to Augusta to see view the Old Fort Western which was built in 1754 and is a National Historic Landmark and is America’s oldest surviving wooden fort.  Tours of the fort are available from 1-4 p.m. at a minimal cost.

12.   Leave Augusta, Maine:  Head south on I-95 for 105 miles; merge onto NH-101 east for 5.5 miles; then turn right onto Ocean Blvd./NH -1A south; turn left onto D Street; and another left onto Ocean Blvd./NH 1A north,  to Hampton Beach, NH.  This is the premium beach location of New Hampshire and offers plenty of great places to eat and enough lobster to keep your claws busy. 

13.   Put your feet in the cool ocean and then eat fresh seafood.  After all, you have covered about 590 miles thus far and your feet might appreciate the chilled waters.  There are plenty of photo opportunities here or you may just enjoy sitting upon a rock at Sawyer’s Beach, south of town, to soak up the horizon.

14.   Dry off and load into the car:  Heading to Manchester, New Hampshire is simple and only 50 minutes from the Hampton Beach area.  Turn left onto NH-101 W/Church Street; continue on NH-101 for 38 miles; merge onto I-293 N/NH-101 W toward Manchester for 2.5 then;  turn left on NH-3A/Brown Avenue for 1.5 miles; Stay straight to go onto Airport Road and then a slight left towards the rental car return.

15.   Drop off rental car and smile broadly as you have just completed a four state, 628 mile trip in a very short period of time.  If you decide to stay in Manchester for an evening make sure to check out the Frank Lloyd Wright Zimmerman House.  It is the only Wright house open to the public in all of New England.

Nicely done, Road Warrior!

By: Jaymes Ian Woode

jaymeswoode@gmail.com/214-724-7996

3-Day Road Warrior: Portland, OR to San Fransisco, CA

3-Day Road Warrior: Portland, Oregon to San Francisco, California

Why leave the same way you arrived?

If you’re flying to Portland, Oregon, whether on business or for pleasure, and want to see some of America’s most beautiful landscapes, then follow these simple steps to make the most of driving the Pacific Coast in road-warrior fashion. 

Day 1:

1.       Rent a car:  All the major car rental companies are in the Portland International Airport and offer competitive rates for a three or four day rental.  Starting prices are around 85.00 dollars per day.

2.       Drive northwest towards Astoria:  Bordering the Columbia River, this 79 miles scenic drive follows the river all the way to the Pacific Ocean where the state of Washington can be seen just across the flowing waters.

3.       In Astoria: Take a late lunch or early dinner break at the Fort George Brewery for fresh seafood (after all, you can’t get seafood this fresh in land-locked states) and a local brew.

4.       Head South on Highway 101: Coming out of Astoria, the road bends to the south and before you know it, the ocean is in view.  With a full stomach, you are now on your way.

5.       Head to Newport: This short 35 mile drive, with plenty of side stops and oceanic beauty (it is possible to spot whales from any of the several overlooks along the way) with sandy beaches, mountain sized rocks in the water, and cliffs, is a great way to complete your first day.  Stay at the Shilo Inn in Newport.  Every room has an ocean view and it’s just about 50 steps down to the beach where you can build a fire and sit around enjoying the sunset while listening to crashing waves, or take a casually long walk.

Day 2:

6.       Wake up and smell the ocean air outside your door and leave Newport: Head south on Highway 101.  Today’s drive to Crater Lake totals 190 miles and is worth every mile.  Drive 86 miles to Coos Bay, Oregon where you can decide if you want to see the world’s 7^th deepest and America’s deepest lake at Crater Lake or just continue heading south.  (If you’re a nature lover or photographer it is worth the drive as the water is some of the purest on earth and surrounded by cliffs of up to almost 2,000 feet high).  If so, after Coos Bay, drive 11 miles south and head off on State Road 42.  Drive 77 miles to Highway 5 and head north on Highway 5 a few miles and exit onto 138 east.  About another hour and a half of driving will take you to Crater Lake National Park.  Once inside the park, it is only 9.2 miles to the rim of Crater Lake.

7.       Drive the rim of Crater Lake: This drive is a mere 33 miles around the rim of the lake (and only open in the summer due to an average of 44 feet of snow each year) and back to your starting point.  I would suggest going to the left (you can only go left or right) to start so that you can wind down your experience at the Crater Lake Lodge.  With plenty of scenic overlooks to take pictures from, it can take about 1.5 to 2 hours to circumnavigate the rim.  Make sure to stop at the Crater Lake Lodge or neighboring campground for a quick bite to eat and possibly some relaxation on the lodge’s back porch, where wooden rocking chairs provide rest for your back while offering a grand view of the lakes’ blue waters.  Visit www.nps.gov/crla/ for park updates and weather.

8.       Leave Crater Lake National Park: Taking Route 230 south, which becomes Route 62, back to Medford, Oregon.  In Medford, there are plenty of hotels and inns to choose from to recover from all of today’s driving.  Get a good night sleep.

Day 3:

9.       From Medford, get on Highway 5 North and exit onto Route 199 West:  This drive takes you through parts of the Siskiyou National Forest and into Del Norte Coast Redwoods State Park.  This drive is approximately 78 miles and lands you on the California Coastal Highway 101.  Be sure to stop along the side of the road to gawk at the Redwoods shouldering the pavement.  (The coastal redwoods are the tallest species on earth). 

10.   Continue heading south on Highway 101 and stop in the town of Eureka for a nice lunch.  With many great restaurants to choose from, (I’m a fan of the Hurricane Kate’s on 2^nd street), you’re sure to leave this area satisfied.  Besides, the drive ahead is a lengthy stretch and filled with ‘ess’ turns.  It is important to reach the upcoming road only after first digesting lunch.

11.   Leave Eureka, California: Head south on Highway 101.  Drive 51 miles to Garberville, California and then another 14 miles to exit onto Route 1.  Route 1 is full of ‘ess’ curves and requires any driver to pay close attention.  Especially if the coastal fog shelf is crossing over onto the land.  However, after 22 miles of curves, you awaken to the beautiful ocean and majestic scenery once more.

12.   Follow Route 1 down Ft. Bragg and into Albion, California.  Be sure to snap photos along the way.  Once in Albion, you can decide if you have enough time to continue on Route 1 the rest of the way through Pt. Arena, Bodega Bay, and into San Francisco or, take the exit after Albion and drive onto Route 128 back to Highway 5.  (This short cut saves about an hour of drive time).  Once on Highway 5, head south towards San Francisco for approximately another 90 miles.  Soon, you will enter San Francisco via the Golden Gate Bridge.

13.   If you have time, stay at a hotel in the center of the city where you can walk to just about anywhere or catch a trolley to the wharf to eat and take a boat tour to the Golden Gate Bridge and around Alcatraz; walk to Lombard Street, the curviest road in the world; or head over to Ghirardelli Square on Larkin and Beach Street; or just sit at the amphitheater up against the bay, or just about anything else you want to do.

14.   Once you’ve had enough fun or if your time is running short, enjoy a last night in the city or make your way to the airport with a big smile on your face because you just accomplished an 1,100 mile scenic road trip in a very short period of time.

Nicely done, Road Warrior!

By: Jaymes Ian Woode

jaymeswoode@gmail.com/214-724-7996